change is a cycle

i consider myself a person that falls asleep pretty easily. actually mr twiggs kind of wishes that he could be like that. i fall asleep and usually wake up in the morning, and not before in the middle of the night or something. and i’m also one of those persons that falls asleep everywhere as long as i’m sitting (the dentist is one of the most weirdest places in which i fell asleep!). however from time to time it seems that some problems or just questions gather around on my head when i go to bed. it’s like i can have the most easy-going day and then when i go to bed, all those questions or problems just show up in front of my closed eyes. usually the way i get to deal with these moments is actually getting up and edit some pictures (freak?! yeah, i know!), which means that i get to go back to bed at 3am or even later.

and last night that happened to me. i couldn’t go to sleep and i had to get up and write this post and edit these pictures. these are from a walk we took with mr kobe on his birthday – january 5th. he is 2 years-old and it seems that we just picked up at the shelter and at the same time it feels that he has been with us for such a long time, like he was always a part of our lives. lisbon was much more beautiful this day than it has been in these last few days – all rainy and gray.

going through these images and another ones i took on the first day of the year, it reminded me that change is a cycle, like everything else in our lives, to be honest. unless we don’t care much about the way we live, the kind of life we have, the things we do while we are alive, change is always a part of it. i’ve felt that i’ve learned more in these two years that i started the adventure than since i got out of college. maybe it’s a wrong feeling, but i guess that i feel it that way because everything i do, i do it because i learned it on my own. and that way is both harder, but really rewarding afterwards. what also is really rewarding and unavoidable is the journey itself of exploring your options, discovering yourself while you explore the options, finding your place and keep moving towards your goals, that can change along the way.

i believe that change is needed and in almost every case, it’s good for us. it might take some time to readjust to the change, but sometimes you may feel in need for a change, because you want to go further. that is why some leave the country, others change careers, a few have kids, others buy a house, adopt a pet or get married. change is needed and it makes us stronger and if these changes come from our hearts, it might make us move forward and feel more focused!

after being awake last night, i had an epiphany (yes, that is pretty common to me, either when i’m still sleeping and almost waking up or trying to get some sleep… epiphanies come to my mind!) and this year i want to what i believe is best for my creative journey, what i think will actually get me somewhere further on my way. it’s a new year’s resolution, you may call it, for me it’s a good thing and a promise to myself. hope your week starts in a very sweet way! see you tomorrow!

ps. there are new pictures on my film photography blog!